bismillah.

full day-friday.
saturday, me and friends have to go to eye health screening at putrajaya. i dont know what institution invites us to the programme but at putrajaya, which we are located at perbadanan putrajaya and that is where......

#the last place kakdayah and my group members went to, a week before she passed away.
there was a book expo there, so we went to shop and creating memories too. :")
i remembered how she followed me, accompanied me everywhere i went, to find a book.
kakdayahhhhhh, may Allah placed you among those righteous.

#went to a hall - big people there : DR, YB KJ and UFB.
entering the hall when DR was speaking, and the seat was fully occupied exceppt in front rows. i ended up sitting in front of her, the first chair on the way out of the hall. hahah, it was also beside the wife of YB KJ, Puan Nori. she was kind though. :)

DR took her hand behind me and ask,"why are you late?" on her way out, and I was mumbling and shocked for a bit. camera lights everywhere -.-'

#nicely quoted from panels of genexter 2014;

YB KJ : you dont have to kneel down to government. government has to kneel to you, we are here to serve you. 

Nurzulaikha : if you want to be great, you dont have to wait but to start. gen Y get motivation from TRUST, they are ready to give, but first want to receive the trust 

UFB : mahasiswa perlukan kebebasan. kita tidak boleh mengongkong kebebasan mahasiswa. pemuda mudah menerima petunjuk, dan mereka mudah berubah 

En Shahrul : 5 tempat teratas yang selalu dikunjungi orang muda, semuanya adalah tempat shopping.

nice. nice. nice ^^

Thanks a lot lecturers and friends.

Because every single day i learned something from you guys.

Learned to be patient, and giving hope.

May we, optometrist prosper through and through.

Alhamdulillah, presentation went well.

And had a grand meeting for final year, trying to getting the bond stronger.

Ukhuwwah, well said by madam.

Prove that you can be stronger. I want to be brave.

Getting more responsibility and expectation. Should be a way to be nearer to Allah.

20.10.2014

Older now. Receive picture in frame. First person to wish was Fynn, and then Dayah. Thanks :))

A night before, we done a game in usrah, sahabat-to-sahabat review.

"Tegurlah sahabat dengan kasih sayang, jangan disimpan dalam hati".

And its actually left marks in my mind, thinking and muhasabah again. For what is true and what is wrong with myself. And later tomorrow, turning 22, Thinking again there were not much for what I had done, what I had contribute to Islam. :(. Comparing to sahabah, we were a lotttttt relaxed. We gave too much excuses, amd more inorganized works. Pampered much.

May Allah show us His mercy and love.

Taken from hospital sungai buloh. Towards producing saham akhirah. More and more. 

bismilllah.

if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, 

you are happy right?

........................................................

you can close your eyes.

open your hearts.

deep inside

your good side tells you,

"this isn't right."

"I should not be like this"

"this is bad."

"Allah sees me in every second, everywhere I go"

please dear, escape back to Allah.

cause HE is waiting for you.

yes dear you, please :'(

bismillah.

now she wonders and look aback what had brought her here.

last year she was ... well ordinary?

then she decided to move in to a house full of kakaks.

she's the youngest. even though she were not that close with them.

she did not really know why and what makes her done that before though.

and then after 1 semester, she got chosen to be leader among us.

a petite leader.

from someone ordinary, she tries very hard to fulfill the requirements to be a leader.

the responsibility makes her workloads bigger.

life began difficult, academic began hard to cope with.

she needs strength.

every single night waking up for tahajud.

now she realizes.

often Allah's plan is the best.

He choose you to be a leader, creating a way nearer to HIM.

ya Rabb. I am jealous.

bismillah.

I am expected to be a doctor but I end up doing optometry.

that's what others expected, but I expect another for me.

and whats more important than Allah's expectation?

i end up giving advice to the kids at the end of the class to the kids.

which now I seem to regret it. I expect they will understand, but do I expect other than that?

do I consider that possibilities?

now I am just tawakkul to Allah, that in that one minutes, someone will understand.

probably not all, but some. and sorry kids. heh :P

do not expect what you received, you need to give out all.

consider their level, consider their understanding.

do not expect what you give, you will receive from the same person.

no, it does not happen just like that.

sometimes you give love, but you receive hate? no, you receive love in other way, other people.

do not expect now you are doing good...

because Allah has said in suratul Kahfi verse 103-104.

expect more in you.

let go your comfort zone.

~~imagination~~

stop talking. and start doing.