قد كفاني علم ربي

قَدْ كَفَانِي عِلْمُ رَبِّي

Cukup bagiku pengetahuan Tuhanku

مِنْ سُؤَالِي وَاخْتِيَارِي

Daripada permintaan dan usahaku

فَدُعَـائِي وابْتِهـَالِي

Doa serta permohonanku

شَـاهِدٌ لِي بِافْتِقَارِي

Sebagai bukti pada kefakiranku

فَلِهَذَا السِّرِّ أَدْعُـو

Oleh kerana rahsia itu aku berdoa

فِي يَسَارِيْ وَعَسَارِي

Pada saat aku senang dan susah

أَنَا عَبْدٌ صَارَ فَخْرِي

Aku adalah hamba, menjadi kebanggaanku

  

ضِمْنَ فَقْرِي وَاضْطِرَارِي

Dalam kefakiran dan keperluanku

يَا إِلَـهِي وَمَلِيْـكِي

Wahai tuhanku yang memiliki aku

أنْتَ تَعْلَمُ كَيْفَ حَالِي

Kau Maha tahu akan keadaanku

وَبِمَا قَدْ حَـلَّ قَلْبِـي

Dan apa yang berada dalam hatiku

مِنْ هُمُوْمٍ وَاشْتِغَالِـي

Dari kesedihan dan kesibukanku

فَتَـدَارَكْنِي بِلُطْفٍ

Maka tolonglah aku dengan kelembutan

مِنْكَ يَا مَوْلَى الْمَوَالِي

Dari-Mu Wahai Tuhan seluruh hamba

يَا كَرِيْمَ الْوًَجْهِ غِثْنِي

Wahai yang Maha Pemurah tolonglah hamba

قَبْلَ أنْ يَفْنَى اصْطِبَارِي

Sebelum lenyap kesabaran hamba

يَا سَرِيْعَ الْغَوْثِ غَوْثًا

Wahai pemberi pertolongan dengan segera

مِنْكَ يُدْرِكْنَا سَرِيْعًا

Berilah kami dengan segera pertolongan-Mu

يَهْزِمُ الْعُسْرَ وَيَأْتِي

Yang dapat menghilangkan kesulitan dan dapat mendatangkan

بِالَّذِي نَرْجُو جَمِيْـعًا

Dengan apa-apa yang kami harapkan semua

يا قَرِيْـبًا يا مُجِيْـبًا

Wahai yang Maha dekat, dan menjawab

يا عَلِيْمًا يا سَمِيْـعًا

Wahai yang Maha mengetahui dan mendengar

قَدْ تَحَقَّقْتُ بِعَجْزِي

Aku mengaku akan kelemahanku

وخُضُوْعِي وانْكِسَارِي

Dan ketaatan serta kesedihanku

لَمْ أَزَلْ بِالْبَابِ وَاقِفْ

Aku sentiasa menunggu di hadapan pintu rahmat-Mu

فَارْحَمَنْ ربِّي وُقُوْفِي

Wahai Tuhanku berikanlah rahmat padaku

وبِوَادِي الْفَضْلِ عَاكِفْ

Pada lembah kurnia-Mu aku berada

فَأَدِمْ ربِّي عُكُـوْفِي

Wahai Tuhanku tetapkanlah keberadaanku disana

ولِحُسْنِ الظَّنِّ لاَزِم

Aku sentiasa mempunyai prasangka baik

فَهُوَ خِلِّي وحَلِيْفِي

Ia (prasangka baik) adalah teman dan kawanku

وأَنِيْسِي وجَلِيْسِي

Juga penyenang bagiku dan yang setia bersamaku

طُوْلَ لَيْلِي ونَهَارِي

Sepanjang malam dan siangku

حَاجَةً فِي النَّفْسِ يَا ربّ

Wahai Tuhanku, dalam jiwa ini terdapat hajat

فَاقْضِهَا يا خَيْرَ قَاضِي

Tunaikanlah Wahai yang Maha Menunaikan

وأَرِحْ سِرِّي وقَلْبِي

Tenteramkanlah rahsia dan hatiku

مِنْ لَظاَهَا والشُّوَاظِ

Dari kebimbangan dan pergolakannya

فَالْهَنَا والْبَسْطُ حَالِي

 Sungguh aku akan berada dalam ketenteraman dan ketenangan

وشِعَارِي ودِثَارِي

Dan juga (ketenteraman dan ketenangan) menjadi pakaianku

Bismillah.

Konflik dengan diri sendiri adalah sesuatu yang sangat meng'depressive'kan. Feeling of I don't belong. Feeling of lost. Tapi tiada kekuatan untuk meluahkan. Saya kira ini normal untuk semua. Cuma jalan cerita yang berbeza, tahap ujiannya berbeza.

Ada orang pilih untuk post kat media sosial, tagging seperti 'forever alone' dan 'tiada siapa yang faham' dan seangkatan dengannya. Ramai pilih cara itu. Ramai juga pilih cara memendam rasa. 

Bagi saya, perasaan ini bermula semasa 20-an sehingga sekarang. Rasa macam, betul ke apa aku buat ni? Kenapa mereka tak faham aku? Kenapa dan kenapa? Hati kerap berbisik-bisik. Hati kerap berbolak-balik. Kejap ok, kejap tak ok. Ada orang dia bertuah sebab ada yang memahami, ada tukang dengar cerita-ceritanya. Ada orang bantu mencari dirinya.

To have that, i must first become one. So sape ade masalah, call la. I am ready to listen :)

Always listening, always understanding.

bismillah.

its 16 may,
- mahkamah mesir putuskan hukuman gantung pada presiden morsi, bersama 100 yang lain. dalam senarai tu ada nama yang dah syahid pun, dan termasuk juga prof yusuf qaradhaqi walaupun dia dah jadi warganegara qatar.
-hosni mubarak yang memerintah dengan penuh ketidakadilan dibebaskan dari mahkamah, dr morsi yg adil dijatuhkan secara ketenteraan yang menang secara demokrasi dijatuhkan dalam setahun

-perang yaman
-perang syria tak berkesudahan

-rakyat rohingya masih di lautan, menjadi mangsa pemerdagangan, menjadi mangsa kezaliman dunia. belayar, dan tidak dibenarkan mendarat di mana-mana. Allahu. makan pakai takde. zalimnya kami..

-isu 1MDB yang tidak menguntungkan rakyat dan mengenyangkan birokrasi, hutang kerajaan yang bertambah.

-semalam birthday fynn. semalam hari nakbah. genap 67 tahun orang palestin tak dibenarkan balik ke rumah mereka sendiri. lamaaa tu.

-handle baju batch--pasal baju pun orang boleh naik angin ye? -kendian jumpa sahabat, hilang masalah. :)

-satu sem dah tak balik. may Allah ease fyp :3
-tomorrow pergi hospital teluk intan-last posting as a student! inshaallah :)

bismillah.

bulan 3 dah? kejap nye.

19.mac.

went to putrajaya, rumah mak. for kakdayah's gone on 19 mac 2014.

it's been a year, and I missed her so much.

"ani ok tak?" -she-

22.mac.

as-syahid sheikh yassin and as-syahid syeikh ramadhan al-buti.

those who istiqomah.

those who chose to fight.

19-22 mac.

international in rusile, trg.

honoured and blessed-to be able to sit in one place, together with them :')

who am i?

be in you field, be someone for Islam.

waa qudsah - pray for victory.

bismillah.

end of january.
feb.mac.april.mei.jun.julai
hanya berbaki enam bulan untuk menghabiskan perjuangan di kampus.
masih berasa belum puas merasai alam belajar, tapi Ya Allah, tak sabarnya!
sekarang sedang membilang detik kembali ke kampus.
sedikit waktu di rumah, cuba menikmati detik kebahagiaan ini.
tapi.....

fyp menunggu tuannya balik.
harap semester last ini,

#dapat menyiapkan diri untuk perjuangan luar kampus pula

#dapat mencipta memori manis bersama sahabat sekelas, you guys mean a lot
fira, mekna, fil, iqa, dayah, fad, mira, fatin, kakbilah dan lain-lain

#dapat memaknakan ukhuwah, bersyukur Allah campakkan saya dalam sahabat syurga, ameen.
kakkira, yuni, fynn, jannah, amal, ila, kakdayah, nada, ctk, am dan sahabat lain. (semua dah tertulis dalam hati)

#dapat memberikan tenaga yang tak seberapa untuk persatuan
rakanmasjid; semoga mencapai biah solehah kampus!

#dapat membanggakan dan tak menyusahkan supervisor fyp
madam fatin, mohon bersabar dengan saya, ngee

#dapat perform viva, posting, klinik, dan grad dgn cemerlang!

bismillah.

i got the tips from facebook. just placed it here and make it shorter.

1) don't just reread your notes and readings
when students re-read a textbook chapter, they show no improvement in learning

2) ask yourself a lot of question
- use questions at the back of chapter or make up your own questions

3) connect new information to something you already know

4) draw out information in visual form
- flowcharts, visual models, diagrams

5) use flashcards

6) don't cram, space out your studying
- means no study last minute

bismillah.

we have come to final year---and the symptom started, yeah like a month ago.

getting busier day by day. :(

few things to ease my feelings :

- others are more busy, siang malam.

- the quote, : bernafas dalam perjuangan, final year!

- I ask Allah for strength - and Allah give me difficulties to make me strong.

- I ask for more time to finish works - and Allah give me more more more works just to have my time more meaningful-

masa yang kita beri di jalan ALLAH, itulah masa kita. orang yg banyak buang masa, dia paling sikit masa. 

syndrome homesick. every weeks seeing classmates and housemates going back to hometown.

aaaaah, be strong. 

do pray for meeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

bismillah.

full day-friday.
saturday, me and friends have to go to eye health screening at putrajaya. i dont know what institution invites us to the programme but at putrajaya, which we are located at perbadanan putrajaya and that is where......

#the last place kakdayah and my group members went to, a week before she passed away.
there was a book expo there, so we went to shop and creating memories too. :")
i remembered how she followed me, accompanied me everywhere i went, to find a book.
kakdayahhhhhh, may Allah placed you among those righteous.

#went to a hall - big people there : DR, YB KJ and UFB.
entering the hall when DR was speaking, and the seat was fully occupied exceppt in front rows. i ended up sitting in front of her, the first chair on the way out of the hall. hahah, it was also beside the wife of YB KJ, Puan Nori. she was kind though. :)

DR took her hand behind me and ask,"why are you late?" on her way out, and I was mumbling and shocked for a bit. camera lights everywhere -.-'

#nicely quoted from panels of genexter 2014;

YB KJ : you dont have to kneel down to government. government has to kneel to you, we are here to serve you. 

Nurzulaikha : if you want to be great, you dont have to wait but to start. gen Y get motivation from TRUST, they are ready to give, but first want to receive the trust 

UFB : mahasiswa perlukan kebebasan. kita tidak boleh mengongkong kebebasan mahasiswa. pemuda mudah menerima petunjuk, dan mereka mudah berubah 

En Shahrul : 5 tempat teratas yang selalu dikunjungi orang muda, semuanya adalah tempat shopping.

nice. nice. nice ^^

Thanks a lot lecturers and friends.

Because every single day i learned something from you guys.

Learned to be patient, and giving hope.

May we, optometrist prosper through and through.

Alhamdulillah, presentation went well.

And had a grand meeting for final year, trying to getting the bond stronger.

Ukhuwwah, well said by madam.

Prove that you can be stronger. I want to be brave.

Getting more responsibility and expectation. Should be a way to be nearer to Allah.

20.10.2014

Older now. Receive picture in frame. First person to wish was Fynn, and then Dayah. Thanks :))

A night before, we done a game in usrah, sahabat-to-sahabat review.

"Tegurlah sahabat dengan kasih sayang, jangan disimpan dalam hati".

And its actually left marks in my mind, thinking and muhasabah again. For what is true and what is wrong with myself. And later tomorrow, turning 22, Thinking again there were not much for what I had done, what I had contribute to Islam. :(. Comparing to sahabah, we were a lotttttt relaxed. We gave too much excuses, amd more inorganized works. Pampered much.

May Allah show us His mercy and love.

Taken from hospital sungai buloh. Towards producing saham akhirah. More and more. 

bismilllah.

if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, 

you are happy right?

........................................................

you can close your eyes.

open your hearts.

deep inside

your good side tells you,

"this isn't right."

"I should not be like this"

"this is bad."

"Allah sees me in every second, everywhere I go"

please dear, escape back to Allah.

cause HE is waiting for you.

yes dear you, please :'(

bismillah.

now she wonders and look aback what had brought her here.

last year she was ... well ordinary?

then she decided to move in to a house full of kakaks.

she's the youngest. even though she were not that close with them.

she did not really know why and what makes her done that before though.

and then after 1 semester, she got chosen to be leader among us.

a petite leader.

from someone ordinary, she tries very hard to fulfill the requirements to be a leader.

the responsibility makes her workloads bigger.

life began difficult, academic began hard to cope with.

she needs strength.

every single night waking up for tahajud.

now she realizes.

often Allah's plan is the best.

He choose you to be a leader, creating a way nearer to HIM.

ya Rabb. I am jealous.

bismillah.

I am expected to be a doctor but I end up doing optometry.

that's what others expected, but I expect another for me.

and whats more important than Allah's expectation?

i end up giving advice to the kids at the end of the class to the kids.

which now I seem to regret it. I expect they will understand, but do I expect other than that?

do I consider that possibilities?

now I am just tawakkul to Allah, that in that one minutes, someone will understand.

probably not all, but some. and sorry kids. heh :P

do not expect what you received, you need to give out all.

consider their level, consider their understanding.

do not expect what you give, you will receive from the same person.

no, it does not happen just like that.

sometimes you give love, but you receive hate? no, you receive love in other way, other people.

do not expect now you are doing good...

because Allah has said in suratul Kahfi verse 103-104.

expect more in you.

let go your comfort zone.

~~imagination~~

stop talking. and start doing.

bismillah.

sembunyikanlah kebaikan kamu sebagaimana kamu sembunyikan keburukan kamu. titik.
this has becoming more difficult to do nowadays since everyone's trend is to show off.
it's hard, because now is zaman fitnah. its hard because news can get to you very fast.
nevertheless dont stop trying.

in just two days, two as-syahid insyaAllah passed away.
its just too disappointing that me myself had just know about them after they died.
had just be able to scroll the biodatas and contributions of what they had done after they'd gone.
it is just tooooooo :'(.

they are istiqamah. will we be?

p/s : semalam ganti cikgu ainin :P

bismillah.

"kalau bukan kita, siapa lagi?
kalau bukan sekarang, bila lagi?"
sungguh, kehadiran mereka tidak lain tidak bukan untuk mentarbiyah diri kami.
walaupun tak larat dan tak mampu, tapi perancangan ALLAH tu sangatlaaaaa perfect.
Allah tolong kami, di saat kami rasa tak mampu, sehingga ada juga di antara mereka berjaya.
adik-adik itu, walaupun mereka sibuk dengan jadual belajar yang padat, tapi komitmen yang ada perggghhh.
sangat la hebat. alumni yang hebat, moga berjaya dunia akhirat :')

sebenarnya ramai yang mahukan kebaikan, kerana itu satu fitrah.
sama seperti sirah yang dilakarkan saat Jibril menawarkan dua gelas air kepada Nabi Muhammad,
mana yang baginda pilih? susu kan? sebab arak lambang kehinaan dan keburukan.
dan sebenarnya lagi ramai yang tersesat kat luar sana.
sebab kita tak menang tangan ke? yang pasti, itu satu daripada kekhilafan kita. :/
golongan A, golongan B. tak semua akan masuk dalam tapisan.

dan sebenarnya mereka mahu, cuma perlu didekati.
kerana kita jarang mahu bertanya dan mereka pula malu bertanya.
terima kasih fatin, kerana tolong dia :)

ini satu keputusan yang sukar.
jangan jadikan ia satu perhentian, tapi jadikan ia satu permulaan kepada satu yang lebih ke depan!

Bismillah.

Lawatan ke kilang hoya. Banyak juga yang belajar, betullah dengan pemusafiran, kita lagi kenal siapa kawan kita. 

Masuk ke dewan seminar, kami disambut seorang non muslim, a chinese as expected. 

"My name is chong zili, you can call me zili or whatso ever. Ok i am sorry, my voice is not........."

And goes bla bla bla...i am wondering why is it always chinese to go for industry?

dia sangat humble. suka berkongsi pengalaman.
dia bagi nasihat kat kami semua, yang kami should go for industry, takperlu nak sambung master terus etc. tapi itu pendapat dialah. sebab dia diajar pengalaman berinteraksi dengan pasaran luar lagi penting dari pengetahuan yang diajar dalam kelas. because that is what optometry is, to keep up with the outside.

dia sangat pemurah, bayangkan dia belanja 54 orang, piza domino kot!
banyaaaaaaaaak  sangat, tapi kejap je habisss, sorang amik macam macam. (TT)
dia sangat menjaga jarak dengan girls, amik gambar jauh-jauh, tak pegang peserta walaupun time tu biasanya orang akan pegang untuk tujuan belajar.
dia sangat rajin dan baik, ke hulu ke hilir uruskan kitorang yang ramai, dari bilik seminar, ke kilang, dari kilang ke surau etc.
selalu je nampak dia tunjuk arah surau, "ni kalau orang Islam ni, dah banyak dapat pahala" kata pakcik dalam kilang tuuu^^

banyakk la yang suka pasal dia.
conclusion is, hikmah tu milik orang Islam yang hilang, kalau jumpa kat mana2, ambillah :)
why not Islam? :)
video sedara baru, best ni.

bismillah.

kejapnya masa berlalu. seminggu tu rasa sangat sekejap. 

dan yang terlebih cepatnya adalah weekend! hehe

osembuddy di taman botani, tak dapat ikut sebab ada KI modul 6.

izzah seorang muslimah terlihat bila dia melontarkan soalan. azra. 

i admire people like that. berani.

business topic in KI yesterday by mr razif.

refresh your intention first. ;D

"mak dan ayah takkan cakap pada kita, kamu tolonglah mak dan ayah. boleh bagi sikit pun jadilah etc etc. tak. takde parents yang akan cakap kat anak dia macam tu. tapi dalam hati dia, mengharapkan kejayaan daripada kamu dan kamu dapat tolong dia di waktu dia dah senja. jadi itu peranan kamulah sebagai anak."

"kamu takkan mampu nak harap pada gaji bekerja kerajaan je."

and the calculations goess....

........

en razif sangat menginspirasikan orang. 

to be like what he said, jom!

Dan apabila mata ibumu sudah tertutup, maka hilanglah satu keberkatan di sisi ALLAH, iaitu doa seorang IBU

Bismillah.

muhasabah. pejam mata. ditanya, 2 hari lepas, ada sesiapa call mak dan ayah?

call mak. minta doa. permudahkan urusan.

result exam, kalau rasa tak cukup, first mesti muhasabah pasal keluarga.

sebab kadang2 takut terlupa call mak. :P

memilih untuk keluarga. 

berkati ibu bapa ku, Ya Allah.

:')

never.left.us.
may.HE.guide.us

Bismillah.

"Mak, saya sayang mak"
You have to say, you have to appreciate.
Islam taughts us well.
Love has to speak out.

Allah sends me, sends us tests, but He sends also with that, many helps.
A must remember everytime, everything happens for a reason.
Its hard to keep that in mind.
Never to expect from others, but Allah.
For Him who showered us with much love and blessings, thank you Ya Allah.

For dear kakwani, sorry but thank you for the counselling haha.
You made my day ^__^

Too many unsung hero out there. :)
I wish I could see everyone's kindness.
And strongly wish others to see everyone's kindness too.
Unsung hero, you had contribute to a better world to live in :))

Dilemma.

Bismillah.

Everything has its bad side and good side.

Competition.

I dislike it since forever, because its something that drains out the bad aura from us.

Its building egoism in us, and tell us not to lose even if we are at the wrong side.

Its like menegakkan benang yang basah.

And sometimes its making friends to leave friends. Like you are on your own.

You dont feel sorry for your friends. 

I have nothing to dislike if and only if we compete positively.

Compete but by having empathy, gratitude and helping.

Compete for good grades, but by helping each other. 

Okay lets give easy example, we have important notes from senior, and we keep it to ourself because of that competitiveness spirit. 

"Only I can get high marks"

I have nothing to regret if and only if we compete for better us.

And thats is by being together, not alone.

We muslims do not need to compete among us, but to compete with the kuffar.

Cos through competition, there's always elimination.

The good will go for the higher level, and the bad will be thrown away.

Rotten apple goes to the dustbin.

Thats what competition is, and we dont want it to happen to us, muslims.

We want everyone to become high, to become good apple, to stay and no elimination.

So lets say in our life, we compete for dean's list, and we only compete with us, and then elimination happen? The lower grades will be what then? Why not we help? Why should we compete?

Compete to be good muslim, emmm.://

I'd rather ajak daripada lawan.